The Loudmouth Protestant

November 30, 2007

The Accutane Account

Filed under: God — nickisym @ 9:03 pm
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I was going to start a completely different blog to document my time on the wonder drug but then I realized that time is slipping away from me on this one so to add another would make me sad because I wouldn’t want to coddle one more than the other.

So periodically I am going to update you all on my progress on the Accutane. My biggest hope is that people interested in learning more about the drug from someone on it will find my use of it informative. I have graduated from having faith in God for my healing to trusting God that he will do it and part of the trust in action is taking this drug and believing that God is bigger than goofy side effects. It’s not to say that I am not going to stay alert to the side effects, I will, but I refuse to be a slave to it by expecting the side effects just because everyone says it will happen.

I’ve been in fervent prayer with God asking that He protect me on the journey which I am about to go on. I know that many have so much to say about this drug and its side effects but I also know that as a child of God I am supposed to speak to the mountain about my God not speak to God about my mountain. Given this, I have claimed that I will experience none of those zany mental side effects they list. I know that my God is so incredible that he can overcome side effects.


November 28, 2007

I’m Coming Back

Filed under: Uncategorized — nickisym @ 12:39 am

I’ve been gone from you for a little too long, but I ask that you endure a little longer. I should be back up and running tomorrow with some new post, videos, etc. I hope that you had a blessed and wonderful Thanksgiving.

November 18, 2007


Filed under: life,men,randomness,Uncategorized — nickisym @ 10:30 pm
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Yesterday a friend was telling me about her current crushes and much to my chagrin I didn’t have one to speak of. I tried to make one up but it didn’t feel authentic as I rarely have the opportunity to see the person so basically I am making my crush up based on memories from weeks ago. But today I think I have finally found a crush and I am proud to share him with you. Here he is:


Mmm Mmm good.

Accept Nothing Less…

Filed under: God,love,relationships,Uncategorized,waiting on God — nickisym @ 12:43 am

Proverbs 10:22: The blessing of the Lord makes a person rich, and he adds no sorrow with it.

This scripture was illuminated to me in a prayer during a women’s workshop I attended this morning. As soon as the prayer ended I opened my Bible to highlight it only to find out that I had already done that, so instead I put an asterisk by the scripture because I had a revelation on its meaning in my life and the lives of those around me that I’d like to share with you.

Like many women, I struggle with letting go of past hurts and only today did I decide to admit that I am heartbroken. That the dreams that I have and the person that sometimes consumes my thoughts to the point of sickness is indeed someone who at a point in life had my heart. But today I received my breakthrough through this scripture.

According to the scripture, the “blessing” of the Lord makes one rich. It is his “blessing” that makes us rich, meaning that anything he ordains for us makes us abundantly supplied with joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness and self-control. His blessing adds value to our life and takes nothing away. That means that every relationship within God’s will adds richness into your life. But, if you pursue or have a relationship that is not within God’s will for your life, then you can surely expect the second part of the scriptural equation, the sorrow.

When you don’t wait for God’s blessing on your relationships and you decide to go for self instead of wait for the spirit, rest assured your relationship will crash and burn. If you notice that you spend more time being frustrated, upset, confused and compromising your integrity for the sake of keeping a relationship you should take a step back and figure out when last you heard from God. Realize he doesn’t put us in precarious situations so that we can figure our way out–his word says that he provides a way out of temptation. He doesn’t give us a man that is less than what we would have expected. He fulfills the desires of our heart but he does it in such a way that it is always exceedingly, abundantly over anything we could ask, think or imagine. If you are waiting on God to send a helpmate to you, realize that God will not send you a man that has baggage. A man that can’t commit to you. A man that can’t be honest with you. A man that doesn’t believe in God–or one that does but is duplicitous in his behavior. The list goes on and on. But I say all of that to say that you should not confuse God’s blessing with your mess. Recognize the importance of waiting on God’s blessing in your life and not just in your relationships but in every part of your life.

It’s time for us to acknowledge the way God works in our lives and realize that if we are following Him we never have to accept less.

November 16, 2007

God’s Word Is First

This morning I spent some time in the book of Job. I love the strength and courage of Job even in the midst of trials and tribulations and I also love God’s rebuttal to all of Job’s ponderings.

I was reading from the Blackaby Study Bible which has historical excerpts and contemplative thoughts on God throughout the Bible. But as I was studying I stopped on this scripture in Job 23:12b: “I have treasured the words of his mouth more than my necessary food.” It became bold to me within the nanosecond of my reading it. I understood it all too well because I always seem to let the little foxes of life interrupt my relationship with God. It is always the little foxes, isn’t it?

But then I looked up to the next page and it said this:

“God’s word is top priority. If we must forego sleep or food or recreation in order to not neglect God’s word, then that’s what we must do.”

But how many times have we all not forgone food, recreation or sleep to be in God’s word. We are so consumed by the cares of this world. I dare say that even work comes before God’s word for some of us, but I dare to think that work can wait–particularly if it is the job that God gave you–just so you can stay in his word just a little bit longer. For the last year or so I have been sustaining myself on the concept of not leaving my home until I am overflowing with the anointing. I don’t always get there–at least I don’t think I do–but the point is that we are supposed to stay in his word, pray and meditate for long enough that when we leave, we work out of the overflow and not out of the draught. The draught will slow us down, make us tired and incapable of doing God’s work, but the overflow gives us energy to press forward. I notice that on days when I press into God’s word through tiredness and a long “to-do” list, those days are way more productive and bountiful than when I don’t.

So choose this day whom you will serve. Your stomach, need for entertainment, need for sleep and your job can wait if it means you will be that much better.

November 15, 2007

Can’t a Girl Have Standards?

So as you all know I signed myself up for Crazy Blind Date, a site that matches people up based on arbitrary questions and basics of dating requirements and texts you on the day of your date to tell you where to meet your boy–or girl–wonder. It’s been about a week now since I signed up and much to my surprise, I got an e-mail yesterday saying they don’t have a date for me. Well, I guess I wasn’t that surprised because I was told earlier on that having too many restrictions would ensure I didn’t get a date. But what gives?

You see, like many women of my stature, I have standards and I don’t want to call them high for fear of sounding like a witch, but I guess you call a spade a spade. But at the most basic level that Crazy Blind Date matches people up, they consider my standards too high to get a date on their clock.

I remember when I first encountered this problem. It was when they were asking me the requirements of my ideal date, so I was honest and said they need to above a certain height, be a certain ethnicity, be a Christian and maybe one other selection which I don’t remember now. Somehow they consider my having 3-4 basic requirements of a man too restrictive. Gee, had they given me even more questions to answer they might have just kicked me off the site completely for being insane. So who exactly will this system work for?

Stay tuned folks…

November 13, 2007

No One

Filed under: christians,God,music — nickisym @ 10:26 pm
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Certain music has an indelible quality to it. Sometimes unbeknownst to the artist, they are creating music that exalts a higher power than them, such is the case with Alicia Keys hit single “No One.”

While most figure she is talking about an earthly love, the lyrics hint at a love so much deeper than earthly love. I sensed this after owning the song for nearly a month but having a contemplative experience with it last Friday.

You see, last Friday I woke up with a pep in my step. It’s not that I don’t usually wake up this way—ok I don’t—but there was something different about the day. I felt like I was in love or like a good friend of mine said, “I felt like I had a boo.” It was that “Got Me Up So High” cloud nine feeling that John Legend sung about on his debut album. It was that feeling of knowing that “Jesus Is My Help” as sung by Hezekiah Walker and the Love Fellowship Choir. It was just an awesome day. So when I hit my desk and turned on my iPod, after listening to a few of my favorite gospel songs, I decided to scroll to the Keys’ song. As I listened to the pulsating beat and her raspy voice, I felt connected to God. I knew that these were lyrics that I could take from the secular and claim it for the sacred. I know that in the deepest contemplative moment of Christianity, we should always be able to find the sacred in the secular and I was finally able to find it in something I enjoy immensely, music. But it didn’t stop there.

Later on that night in Bible study, as my charismatic young adult pastor reached the peak of his study, he recited the lyrics to the song. He said that there is no one like God. He is the Alpha and the Omega. He then went as far as to recite the entire Greek alphabet and say that God is all of that and everything in between. If that wasn’t confirmation for finding sacred in the secular, then I don’t know what is. And maybe there will be a faction of you that will think that’s a stretch, but it’s how I connected with God on a deeper level that day. He can meet us whenever, wherever and through whatever outlets he wants to as long as we are open to his coming. Try it out, I promise He won’t disappoint you.

And for those unfamiliar with Alicia’s latest, here are the lyrics:

No One
By Alicia Keys

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don’t worry ‘cuz
Everything’s going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything’s going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don’t worry ‘cuz
Everything’s going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all I know is everything’s going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try, try to divide something so real
So ’til the end of time I’m telling you there is no one

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you

oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh

I Wish…

Filed under: life — nickisym @ 10:17 pm
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This evening as I was riding the train home I overheard the conversation of a group of black teenagers. One of them was talking about the other and telling him that he was ugly and dirty. The instigator dropped the N-bomb about 50 times in the span of my three minute ride. He told his victim that he looks like his male organ, that his lips were so chapped that it looked like someone cut him just because they felt like it, and he also told the boy that he could never get any witch with looks like his. (Read witches with a “b” not the ones from Eastwick.)

I looked at the young man a couple of times hoping to catch his eye. I didn’t know what I would say if he looked in my direction so I tried to go back to reading my book and calling on Jesus. During this youth’s conversation, most people on the train had a look of disdain on their faces but no one could do an earthly thing about it and this really ticked me off. We were all powerless because we were afraid of the backlash. What kind of world do we live in when adults are scared to step to a youth that is being disrespectful because we fear for our lives? I felt sad that the people on that train had to be subject to such disgusting language, all from the mouth of a teenager that is barely old enough to pull up his own pants. I managed to calm down by the time that I walked into my home but then I came upon this article:

The KKK Disbands: Leaves Their Job To Black Folks

The KKK leader stepped to the podium, his hood lowered around his shoulders

And a look of disgust on his face. He said, ‘Sorry guys but this will be our last meeting; we’re going out of business.’

A member stood up in back. ‘But why sir?’

The leader sighed, ‘Well, reverend, the Blacks are doing a better job getting rid of themselves than we ever did, so we are no longer needed.’

There were rumblings and protest. The leader raised his hand to silence The Klan members, and said, ‘Their rap music says more vile things about Black women than we ever thought of.’

The members grudgingly nodded in approval. The Imperial Dragon Continued: ‘And their women write books and make songs that demean black Men better Than my two speech writers ever could, looking down at two men seated in Front who lowered their heads.

‘They shoot each other constantly ‘, he continued;’ And as a group, they Spend a huge amounts of money on cars, liquor, that stuff they call bling Bling, and the proliferation of rap music — as they talk about all that in their magazines — and nobody needs us to talk about how a lot of their sorry butts keep playing the race and victim cards while complaining that Other groups are surpassing them in economic development and supposedly getting more attention in schools. Hell, they even support a so-called ‘Black Hair’ DVD that a white man is making money on, in four sequels at $20.00 a pop.

They talk about how Koreans have taken over the ‘black hair’ industry, without acknowledging that Black entrepreneurs had 100 years to get a monopoly or Entrenchment in the industry that Madam C.J Walker founded 100 years ago, but got out-hu[SPAM]ed and out-strategies, while spending investment capital elsewhere.

Let’s face it, they’re being hoisted by their own petards.’ !

Some members went looking for dictionaries, while most members nodded, as it hit them that their job was finished; that Blacks had become their Own Worst Enemy.

The leader shook his head. ‘It’s time to go back to our regular lives as Policemen, judges and congressmen, and leave the business of getting rid of Blacks to Blacks.
They are just better at it than us.’

He then threw his hood on the ground and walked off the stage. Thus ended the last KKK meeting.

User Epilogue….

We may hate to read this, but buried not to deep within there is a message here. I truly hope you are able fathom it and take something away from it. Our young people especially need to read this.


Each one teach one, each one reach one, that’s all it takes. We will only go as fast as our last straggler!! We will only climb as high as the one whose shoulders you stood on to get out of that hole. No one of us is as smart as all of us. Start today, make a difference.

I don’t think I need to say anything else

November 12, 2007

If There Were No You…

Late last night before I went to sleep I turned on my stereo to let it lull me to sleep. Whenever I turn my radio on this late at night I usually go directly to 96.3 for its late night classical program but tonight I decided to turn to the 1190, the AM Gospel station. As soon as the station tuned in I heard the most beautiful song. I didn’t know the artist–though I did hear J.Moss crooning in the background–but I heard this refrain in repetition “If There Were No You.” I rushed to find a piece of paper to write that chorus down and I went to sleep with the song in my mind. As soon as I woke up the next morning, I went to my computer and searched for the song by typing in the chorus. I typed in J.Moss and “If There Were No You,” and it popped up immediately as a song from an artist by the name of Darlene McCoy. I went to iTunes purchased the song and the rest is history.

I played the song about 20 times today, each time going to deeper contemplative thought about what that means to me. The chorus:

If there were no you
There’d be no one by my side
Who would I run and cry to
When I felt I had to
If there were no you
I’d be just like that tale
Of a ship without a sail
Tossed and driven
If there were no you
I wouldn’t be satisfied
Might not even be alive
If there were no you
Don’t know what I’d do, if I had no you

This spoke volumes to me because I actually took a moment to think about where I would be if it wasn’t for the grace of God. I believe that life requires these moments of reflection.

I spend so much time worrying about the things that I don’t have but of all the things I consider myself wanting so badly there is only one thing that I could not live without. I can do nothing apart from God and I am nothing apart from God and so I am so profoundly appreciative of the moments when I can acknowledge that. It keeps things in perspective in a time when I get so caught up in what I want and how I figure that is going to make me happy. But who needs the happiness of things and people when you can have the infinite joy of the divine Father?

November 11, 2007

Christmas Time Is Here…

Filed under: christianity,christians,movies — nickisym @ 10:52 pm
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So let the spending or commence–or not. The latter is the point of view of the Rev. Billy and his “Church of Stop Shopping.” He is the star of the new Morgan Spurlock-produced documentary entitled “What Would Jesus Buy?”

The WWJB crusade went across the America trying to convince people to repent from their wicked ways of consumption and think about the true meaning of Christmas. Though my biggest problem with this film is the fact that they capitalized on the showmanship of charismatic Christian preachers and choirs to get their message across and they failed to let people know what the true reason for the Advent season is, they hit the nail on the head in regards to America’s problem with over-consumption. We focus on the quantity of gifts instead of the quality. The recieving instead of giving. The spirit of consumerism before we focus on the Holy Spirit. We have surely been decieved by the god of this world.

Many tried to answer the question, “What Would Jesus Buy?” Some said he would buy a yarmulke, some said he’d buy sandals, others said he’d buy socks, but I dare to wonder if he would bother with any of that. I want to know, what would Jesus do on Christmas? It seems like a crazy question written out, but I feel that it would certainly put things into perspective.

For those that are so inclined here is a trailer of the movie:

If you liked “Super Size Me” you will love this movie. Lack of references to the true father of the season notwithstanding, this movie can surely convict the comfortable. It will be in limited release starting this week at NY’s Cinema Village.

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