The Loudmouth Protestant

March 7, 2008

He’s Back

For the first time in 2008, the star of my dreamscapes has decided to make a cameo appearance. This time I faintly know why he was in my subconscious. It was mainly because I happened to see him on the latest social network craze and I let technology kill the cat. So yesterday evening when I finally lay me down to sleep it went a little something like.

I was at a friend’s house party of sorts. I recall there being two-floors in her home and I was navigating my way through the house until I settle on a position in the kitchen behind the counter. There I was leaning on the countertop and who was directly in front of me on the floor with a young lady but the man of the hour. Though I was leaning on the counter and talking to a friend it seemed that my attention was focused on him and his attention was focused on the young lady he was on the floor with. The girl was attempting to show affection to him via putting her arms around him or giving him kisses on his cheek but he declined every advance that she made. He mushed her in the face, he pushed her away, he did everything in his power to keep her away but she wasn’t taking a hint. I was watching and not watching this all go down.

Nevertheless I ended up sitting on the floor near them chatting with my friend and in the blink of an eye the entire room turned into an orgy. (I kid you not!) One second everyone was laughing and chatting and the next every single person in the room was on top of each other including the star. Well as soon as I saw this, I got up and I left the house because I was devastated. I was shattered into pieces. And that was the end of the dream. Fade to black.

So when I woke up this morning I was distraught. This always happens to me after vivid dreams. They get into my spirit and they make me sad. I was sad because he came back and sad because even in the dream he chose to be with someone else. I thought I was over this I told God as I prayed this morning and I prayer that this moment would pass as quickly as it came and that he would help me to guard my heart, my mind and my eyes in the days to come. With that I went on my way and I didn’t put much thought into it after that. I decided that I wouldn’t spend anymore time thinking about it or talking about it until God spoke to my situation through a Myron Butler song. Now some of you may know how desperate I was to get the CD last year and I finally relented and bought it on iTunes. Well I am so thankful that I did because it got me through today. God showed himself to me through track number 2 on “Stronger” which is entitled “More Than You’ll Ever Know.” The moment when God shook me out of my subconscious funk happened when I heard this:



September 28, 2007

Myron is Back!

Filed under: God,gospel music,life,music,Myron Butler — nickisym @ 3:02 pm

No I didn’t find his new album yet, but a gem from his last CD was brought to rememberance thanks to the good folks at Yahoo music.

I thought it was going to be a sad music day for me. When I boarded the train this morning to head to work, I dutifully pulled out my iPod only to find that there were no songs on it. How could this be, you ask? I don’t even know, but I know it has been acting up in such a way that I’ve been considering saving up for a new one. So with no music I was left to my own devices so I chose the first best thing, to read my Bible–the book of Amos to be exact. But unfortunately I can’t read the Bible throughout business hours so that is where the iPod dilemma showed itself. With no music to listen to, the prospect of my staying in high spirits and alert were very slim until I recalled my good and faithful servant Yahoo music.

I started out on the Today’s R&B station thinking I’d change it up but I became utterly annoyed–more on that later. So I went back to the “tried and true” gospel station. It was there that I found Myron again. His song “You Will Survive” started to play, a song that has brought me to tears on many occasions but today was different. The boldface verse was, “When life’s ups and downs get the best of you, know that God ordained it to bless you.” With a smile on my face I nodded in agreeance and I discovered something new.

Every trial and triumph in my life–also a part of the song–was ordained by God. The roller coaster of emotions that I am often on is evidence of God. At my peak, God is with me. And when I am low down in the valley he is there to bring me out. I can’t think of a time when I didn’t seek refuge in him during those low times and he didn’t bring me out. Even now as I struggle with my season of singleness, he is sustaining me and giving me strength to hold on to the promise he gave me. I even understand now that the promise is written on my heart because I can feel it–more on this later too. I know the desires of my heart and so does He.

Amazing that this could all come from a song, but you understand a little bit more about why I need the new CD in my life.

September 12, 2007

Where Is Myron Butler?

Filed under: gospel music,music,Myron Butler — nickisym @ 2:27 pm


It feels like this is as close to the CD as I can get.

I’ve been searching high and low for Myron Butler’s lastest CD entitled “Stronger.” Today I visited Best Buy and Disc-O-Rama. In days past I went to Virgin Records and Circuit City. Of course in any of these stores, finding his CD–if it were in stores–is like trying to find a needle in a haystack. Of course there were many copies of Kanye and 50 Cents brand of B.S. but when I need–and I do mean need–to hear some anointed music, it can’t be found. I bet my church’s bookstore doesn’t even have it.

What about iTunes, you ask? Well it is on iTunes but I like to hold my CDs not look at them on a screen. I like liner notes and lyrics.

I’ve been trying not to go this route, but I guess delayed gratification will be my best option… here I come.

If anyone in the NY area has this CD and purchased in NY please let me know where.

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