The Loudmouth Protestant

February 10, 2010

#5: Countdown to a Love Supreme Day

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As I approach 30—granted that’s 10 months from now–I realize how I desire love and to be loved in an earthly sense. I’m not starved for love because I do have all the love I need in God and in the wonderful family and friends He has given me. But there is yet more love that I want to give and still more that I am ready to receive. Being this open and ready for love certainly brings with it extreme vulnerability and a definite possibility of getting hurt more times than not. But the one thing I always take comfort in is knowing God is in control of everything.

Over the last few years when I’ve found myself being interested or liking a person, God has always been the third party in the situation. Most times, it is unbeknownst to the other person, but it is always fully known to me. When I am in the midst of giving too much of myself away too early he reminds me to “guard my heart for it is the wellspring of life.” When I am in danger of getting involved with the wrong person or overspending myself emotionally he removes me from the situation. And then, there are those moments where He gently pushes me into the right direction and encourages me to open myself up and trust Him. He allows me to open my heart and be not afraid of what lies ahead because His perfect love casts out all my fears. He changes me moment by moment and encourages me to be a better woman so that one day, I will be fully prepared for the better man He has prepared for me. For these reasons and more, I choose to stay under His watchful eye when it comes to my desire for love on this earth because I know He will never lead me astray.

God, I trust you and only you with the desires of my heart. I fully know that you know what is best for me, you know who is best for me, you know when is best for me, you know why it’s best for me , you know where is best for me and you know how it will be best for me. I trust you enough to know, “If it’s not you, I don’t want it at all.”

As you navigate the landscape of love this Valentine’s Day, be sure to keep God in His proper place in your relationship. If you can’t see Him in it, there’s a good chance you ought not be in it either.

February 5, 2010

#10: Countdown to a Love Supreme Day

Today’s song may sound familiar to you. Many of us remember exactly who and what the original song makes us think about when we hear it. But the difference between Jill Scott’s “He Loves Me” and Karen and Kierra Sheard’s “He Loves Me” is the focus and where it takes us.

Jill is singing about a horizontal love. The Sheard’s are singing about a vertical love. Jill’s song ignites within many of us, an amourous, erotic fire, which, within the confines of marriage, is fine. But, within the confines of the single Christian man or women, may not help you to keep your flesh in line.

To be clear, I am not condemning Jill’s “He Loves Me”. I think it’s a beautiful, lovely and sensual dedication to her lover. And I’m a woman created by God who was created to and desires to enjoy all of those things–within the confines of a convenant relationship set by God. But, at this moment, while I am unmarried and dedicated to living a chaste life until about 10 minutes after I say, “I Do”, it’s difficult for me to freely listen to Jill’s “He Loves Me” without taking a journey that might very well start in my mind but manifest itself in my actions. For that reason, I keep a tight rein on what I listen to. Sometimes it’s easier said than done, and there are times when I indulge in some music that takes me to the wrong place, but there is always a way out.

Karen and Kiki Sheards’ “He Loves Me” is a way out. Actually, it’s a way in. God’s way in to our hearts. Desiring earthly love is absolutely wonderful–God placed that desire in you. But it is nowhere as fulfilling as living in heavenly love. People have said that you can’t love anyone until you love yourself. Well, I dare to take it one step further and say you can’t love anyone–including yourself–until you realize He loves you.

He loves you. Especially. Different…

February 4, 2010

#11: Countdown to a Love Supreme Day

I am currently reading “The Gift Of Being Yourself” by David Benner. Benner seeks to take readers on a journey to true self-discovery by helping them to realize that everything that they need to become their true self is caught up in knowing God. One of the things that really caught my eye while reading the book is when Benner mentioned that God loves us with a passionate, absorbed interest. As soon as I read that, I imagined God sitting in front of me just staring at me waiting to see what I might do or say next with that look of admiration we hope that someone on this earth might have for us. I imagined that every time I prayed, no matter how trivial the matter, or no matter how many times I had brought it to Him before, He was still standing by waiting to have an occasion with me. At these thoughts I was just amazed at His perfect love.

It’s the love that we all wish for. A love so passionate, so absorbed, so caught up that we don’t see anything or anybody else. THAT, is how God loves us. THAT, is enough to secure us for the rest of our lives. THAT, is the kind of love we can feast off of and never grow hungry or thirsty. THAT, is love unrestrained, unspeakable, unfathomable, unmatchable, unbridled, unadulterated, and unstoppable. Imagine, He has children all over the world and yet the passionate, absorbed interest with which He loves us makes us feel like we are the only ones? THAT, is unselfish.

Considering all of this love He has for me, how can I not be consumed by Him? I just keep having these thoughts of love…

February 3, 2010

#12: Countdown to A Love Supreme

Let’s talk about affection.

People talk about being very affectionate whether it be in their romantic relationships, their friendships or with people in general. This affection can be denoted by the gentle touch a woman will assail on a man’s wrist to “check the time”, the way a man caresses the face of a woman he adores, or the wonderful way that someone can, in the words of one of my favorite artists Erykah Badu, “walk up behind me and kiss me on my neck and breathe on my neck”. It’s the way you hold hands with someone you like and even how you hold hands when we are all gathered together in prayer. It’s the hug shared between friends. The holy kiss shared between the saints. The way when you rub someone’s back or just stay very close to them when you sense they are in need of comfort. It’s even in the way you look at a person, your body language toward them. It’s in the things you say and the things you don’t. Affection, between people, is about the use of our bodies and our selves to delicately communicate our like or love for a person, be it platonic or romantic. But between us and God, what does affection look like? Like really? What does it look like when God has won our affection?

I pondered this as I was listening to #12 in the countdown to A Love Supreme Day. “You’ve Won My Affection” by Champions for Christ has always been one of my favorite songs because it is so intimate. It’s more telling than the touch between two earthly beings. It’s suggests and necessitates the opening of our hearts so that we may communicate with God spirit to spirit. The song says:

“You’ve won my affection. You’ve captured my heart. You have my devotion. My worship is yours.”

Then they go on to repeat:

“Now I am yours, completely yours, forever.”

There is not a time when I listen to this song and I don’t get caught up in thinking about how awesome it is to have and know the God who welcomes my affection. My good, sometimes awkward, always pure affection. I’m not the master of being affectionate with people, and there are many people’s model of affection I’d love to imitate, but I take comfort in knowing that I have countless and everlasting opportunities to perfect being affectionate with a God who will never deem my affection imperfect or awkward because our affection is spirit to spirit affection. Because of this, I am thankful to say, on this day, unashamed, that the God of all creation has won my affection, captured my heart, you have my devotion, and now I am His, completely His, forever.

Note: There’s no video accompanying this post. As I was writing this, I wondered if it was getting too long particularly because I knew I still needed to embed the video. I didn’t search for the video until after I finished writing this post and that’s when I found that the version I am looking for, from Champions for Christ, doesn’t exist on YouTube. So, I guess God had His way on this one.


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